So, whatever you want to do, just do it. Making a fool of yourself is absolutely essential. – Gloria Steinem
Am I making a fool of myself? Since launching my blog in 2006 and sharing every funny, unfunny, silly, sometimes super stupid thought that crossed my mind, I have never once wondered if I was making a fool of myself. In fact, I didn’t care of I was making a fool of myself. When people asked why I shared as openly as I did (and still do), I said, if I’m feeling this way or going through this thing, someone else is, too, and I want them to know they’re not alone.
The point is, I didn’t question what I had to say. And these days I find myself longing for those days.
These days, when I sit down to write or vlog, I find myself wondering if I’ve overstayed my welcome, if it’s asking too much of people like you, who’ve been on this ride with me for so long, to join me for yet another incarnation of myself.
She’s blogging! She’s on YouTube! She’s giving a TED Talk! She’s selling Pure Romance (quick, who needs more Coochy?)! She’s on her ‘special needs‘ soapbox! She’s, she’s, she’s.
I’ve always been a firm believer in second, third, and fourth acts, in pursuing what makes us passionate. But for the first time ever, I’m wondering if I’m making a fool of myself.
Of course by tomorrow or next week, I’ll probably be back to not giving a hoot if I’m embarrassing myself. I’ll be back to my usual position of “I write, say, share what I share because I care.” (And because we all know I can’t help myself.) Thanks for staying on this journey with me, and putting up with the things I ponder.